December was a great month, but there was just so much going on that I rarely had time to myself. It was like one event and project after another, which was fun, but my autistic brain not having much of a break and not having my usual routine did cause some stress. I’ll be honest, when I was younger one major way I self regulated and dealt with stress was by eating a lot of food so it became a habit I still have to this day. Also, everyone seems to eat more around the holidays, and boy did I ever. So many sweets and delicious food everywhere. It was fun of course, but not so fun when I felt all of my clothes getting tighter and I start to get a santa claus belly.
Weight is a complicated and sensitive thing for me and a lot of other people, and I don’t want to go too much into it but my core issue with weight gain is how it feels on my body. I am a person with sensory issues and I can feel even a minor shift, whether it’s weight gain or weight loss and both can cause discomfort in their own ways, but weight gain moreso as it carries an extra heavy feeling I don’t like. It’s not about anything superficial, it’s the uncomfortable heavy feeling I get in my body.
So January is a month of resting, getting back to healthier eating and taking some time to myself. It’s a quieter month which I used to not like so much because of the contrast of how exciting December is, but now I think it’s really essential to have a quieter more relaxing month after all the excitement.
This month will be full of slow mornings, relaxing art projects, chill gaming time, less socialization, journaling, therapy, meditation, pajama days, and just any other cozy activities. I wouldn’t have it any other way.
I’ll leave this post with a cute relaxing lofi youtube channel I recently found, perfect to put on in the background to start off a cozy morning with a cup of coffee. ☕
I never claimed to be normal 
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